Saturday, March 14, 2009

How is it going?

People that are aware of my Lenten sacrifice have been asking me "how is it going?" am I doing OK? I am happy to report that I am doing great. I am spending more time communicating with my husband, I have done some volunteer work, and I am able to research more dinner recipes.

I loved being on FB communicating with my friends, new & old, and reaching out to people from way way back in the day. LOL But I do not miss it as much as I thought I would. It is still a sacrifice because I want to check it out but the urge is not as strong as I thought it would be. So I wonder does that mean that it was not really a sacrifice? or does it mean that I am really committed to fulfilling my Lenten sacrifice? I think it is a sacrifice if you take a look at how much time I was spending on FB. But I am also focused on becoming closer to Christ. I have quite a few things I have identified that I need to work on in my relationships and within myself that of course will take longer than 40 days but it is definitely a start.

Things I have done March 3 - 13 without FB

1. Visited my parents
2. Read and discussed scripture with husband
3. Attended Bible Study
4. Fellowshipped
5. Volunteered
6. Tried new recipes
7. Got emissions tested


Until next time. Keep God first, think what would Jesus do in your situation and PUSH baby PUSH!!!

Love Ya

LA

Monday, March 2, 2009

Friends, Pride, Stubborness, Hurt Feelings etc

I am a person who does not easily get her feelings hurt but when they are hurt....they are hurt. I went on vacation with my very best friend & her family in July 2008. It seemed like a great idea when I suggested it to Fred. I mean going to the beach for a week is always more fun when there are other people with you. The trip started out great we did everything together. This was not my plan because I thought for sure she and her family my want to do stuff just them. Although I was glad when we did so much stuff together because I like being around them. But somewhere around that Wednesday or Thursday things started to change and I just figured we all needed our space. But when it was still suggested we go places together I just shrugged it off as my imagination or whatever. But the tension surfaced again the next day and I knew it was not my imagination. So again I decided we all needed our space. But to make a long story short the tension was so thick in the house by Friday night it needed a chain saw to cut through it and it got no better as we began to pack to go home. I am not sure what the deal was. I asked her about it about a month later but she did not want to talk about it so I told her whenever she was ready she could let me know. I am still waiting for her to let me know.

We have not spoken before because she "thought" I told one of our friends something she asked me not to tell. She did not find out she was wrong until a month or more later. So I am aware of how she is. But I thought for sure that when she found out I was in the hospital not once but twice within a month she would have at least called to see if I was OK. I don't have a lot of people in my life that have been my friend for as long as she has so that really upset me and made me start to think about our relationship.

I am well aware that it is my pride and stubbornness that has prevented me from contacting her after all this time. But I do not feel that I always have to be the bigger person in our relationship when something is wrong especially when I am unaware that I have done anything wrong.

We saw each other this weekend at a birthday party and the "brief polite" conversation we had was very strained. I am not sure if our friendship can bounce back from this.

I know as a Christian I should forgive as many time as Christ forgave but sometimes it is hard when your feelings have been hurt. But I know I need to set this straight because so many scenarios and scriptures are coming to me that indicate I need to talk to my friend. I will be praying for obedience and come out of my stubborn self and consider WWJD.

Love Ya and Thanks for reading
LA

February 27 - March 2 without FB

Lent fact for today: Lent is a time of self-examination and preparation for Easter.

My addiction to FB is due to my excessive compulsiveness. I always wanted to be on FB seeing what pictures had been posted, what people's current status was etc etc. During this time I have not really missed it since I have been doing other stuff.

Friday I rested most of the day, shampooed my hair, looked for a new hairstyle and color, caught up on my recorded TV shows, went to the Youth Post ROCK program, and then Fred read scripture to me before bed.

Saturday - Did face painting at the 2nd Annual Taste of Africa , went to the 75th B-day party of one of my best friends Mom, had dinner and conversation with my husband, and this time I read to Fred.

Sunday - Went to church and breakfast, took a much needed nap, watched reality TV in peace, Fred and I did our bible study homework together and then played Scrabble.

Monday - Stayed home from work, took a walk in the snow with Fred, played in the snow with Fred, watched Fred & Zeke shovel, etc etc it is still early.

As always keep God first and try to refrain from lining your lips with black eyeliner.

Love Ya
LA